Brent's Blog

hey world, its been a while. how ya been, ive been okay.

 so the semester is almost over and everyone's getting ready for finals and what not.  This semesters been pretty crazy. I've done a lot.  Its been fun.  I've had to learn to adjust in a new environment, and Butler has made that quite easy. I've made plenty of good friends and have been blessed to have been able to have great oppertunities to explore my major.  One of the biggest differences Butler has from my last school is the fact that to succeed u MUST be willing to work hard.  At my last school one could slack a little and still do decently.  I appreciate the fact that Butler is difficult because it will prepare me properly for the future.  I am glad that I had this past break.  I enjoyed time with my family.  Even though i live at home, I hardly ever see them.  So it was nice to spend some quality time with them. 

Next semester  I'm definitely going to have to do some careful time management.  Im definitely going to use this semester as a refference.

 im understanding more that a certain amount of pressure is needed for productivity.
without pressure, i guess there is only complacency.
so i guess complacency has to be earned. how much pressure must one endure and how much production does one need to earn complacency??
i guess thats what retirement is. well in saying that, i guess im saying that productivity is measured in money.
that makes me wonder why money is so important.

well i guess  money is the means by which we make progress??

where am i going with this??

idano.
 

so late last night i was writing this intense blog about the picture i took of the Berlin wall and how it speaks of the different contrasts of beauty and what not. i spent about an hour on it and it was amazing. so i click "publish" and this website erases it for some reason.

words could not explain how upset i was. i wanted to cry even, but crying wouldn't help anything. neither would getting mad and throwing my laptop or punching in a wall... so i got to thinking about all the other things i could've been doing instead of poring my heart and soul into that amazing note.

i came to the conclusion that we can always be doing something else of greater importance. so there is no such thing as real time management. i guess we can only make risky investments with our time and hope we've spent it well because time is something that is always being spent away and something that we can never get back. each moment is a snap shot of freshly made history. the only thing that we do get back is the present. after each new present becomes history, the next moment of presence comes to take its place.

i guess the present is kind of like redemption for wasting our precious time. its a new opportunity to learn and live even though the present so quickly turns to history.

i just hope that my writing this blog was a sound investment of time because these past few snap shots of time that are now history that will never come back and the more time we spend dwelling on the things that we cant undo is time truly being wasted.

so the next time u find urself crying or throwing a tantrum over something silly that happened or that u did, just realize that u r wastefully throwing ur present into the dumpster labeled "history."


just my thoughts on time management

HEY ALL!!!

long time no blog! how have u all been? I've been ok.

So basically i've been looking for a job since like forever. More specifically, since August.  It seems like i just cant get a job.  I do work for the psych department and what not, but theres only so much work i can do on campus.  This being broke thing is starting to hurt my feelings :(. I mean gosh darn it, i've hardly been able to handle my phone bill.  ITs killin me inside. Its been so bad lately that i haven't been able to go to school on wednsday and friday because i haven't had gas in the car. Its really depressing so i just call it a mini vaca to cheer myself up.

 
Speaking of the devil (gas), It has been getting cheaper and cheaper. For some reason this does not make me happy.  Ive become so suspicious of the gas companies that i cant enjoy dropping gas prices.  I feel like its a trap. like they are gonna pop up on the news one day like "HAHA gotcha!! all the new, cheaper gas causes elbow cancer!!" [shrug] Idano maybe im just crazy or something. I just don't trust these crazy gasoline fat cats. They're just as trustworthy as the tobacco industry. and as we can all tell from the catchy commercials,  thats not very trustworthy.

 
Do u know who is trustworthy? Sarah Palin! HAHA jk, shes HORRIBLE!! but i do think she should be elected... as the prime mistress of being ADORABLE!! is she not the CUTEST thing to have ever come out of Alaska? I'd hate to be biased or anything like that but she does seem to be one of the most unqualified people to be on a ticket since... idano, Bush. Maybe McCain chose her as his vp on purpose.  She dose make him look really good. Im not sure that McCain would be a good president or not (nor am i so sure about Obama) but i do know that with the economy the way it is, Sarah Palin would sure would brighten peoples days with her adorableness as vp.  They should really create a position just for her.  Whenever something bad happens, they can just tell her to hold a press conference where  she  addresses the nation and winks and says her little "Joe sixpack" and "maverick hockey mom" bits. That would make me feel better about everything. But thats just me.

So i understand that Butler is the border between ritzy and "the hood" as some would call it... So whats with all of this crime.  its getting frustrating getting an email every weekend like clockwork saying that there is a robbery in progress. And as a young black male, its frustrating  to see that it is always some black guys robbing people. As anyone who is familiar with butlers demographics can see, there arent many black people there (let alone black males ). So unfortunately, these robberies shape a lot of peoples view of black men  on campus. I guess i cant really blame them though.  I know i wouldn't be caught in Noblesville or Greenwood after dark.  But its just a shame is all im saying i guess.

What a world we live in where we cant get jobs, we cant trust the gas companies, we cant trust or campus after dark, and  personifications of cartoon characters run for vice president.

 

Hey ALL!!

 How are you today? Im just fine! thanks for asking!

 Anywho, this has been quite the exciting week.  It went by very quickly too. Its funny that this week seemed to be so exciting to me but not much happened...wow, sometimes i dont even understand my own logic... i digress, so understand homecomming is NEXT WEEk! That's pretty cool to me. I was planning on going back to my old school for homecomming this year to hang out with my kentucky state friends.  That probably wont happen, at least not this year. I think going back to k state for their homecomming would bring me a step backwards as far as adjusting to a new school.  Well that and i cant afford the gas money.  I miss my peeps though.  Oh well, i guess thats what facebook is for,

So tonight (9/26/08), was the first presidential debate.  That was very interesting. I did not realize before how much of the world this election actually affected.  Most of the questions asked had more to do with other countries than our own, Apperantly, Russia is rampaging around is the country of Georgia or so somthing causing all kinds of hoop lah.  So the debate guy asked both McCain and Obama what he would do about this situation.  This question opened my eyes to how much of a world police we really are.  Apparently if a country does something that is not nice, we can just say "HEY STOP ThAT ." And who decides which country is alowed to make nuclear weapons?  Thats crazy to me.  That also makes me wonder how countries that are/were apart of the axsis of evil feel about being called "evil." 

Its strange how it seems that a select few contries pretty much run the world. thats kind of a scary thought.

An even scarier thought is the word ECONOMY!!!  According to Obama, we are in a resession so bad that it can only be compared to the great depressions.  That freaks me out somethin firece!  I hope i don't lose my home and be forced to live in a shanty town. that would definitely suck...

well it was nice talking to you, but i've gotta go now! bye bye til next time [waves goodbye]

THANK GOODNESS!!! im finally back into the groove of things.  I've got a pretty clear and solid schedule to work with.  I should have a car pretty soon. Im all caught up with my homework and studying.  This is looking like it's going to be a pretty alright semester.

I've been so FLUSTERED for the past week!! I guess its a good thing though. I suppose constant pressure can keep me from falling into complacency.  However, sometimes i just wish i could just be DONE with college.

I don't think i would REALLy want to skip my college experience but it definitely gets hard.  Every class wants 1000% from me (as they should) and sometimes i just feel like its impossible.  I just have so many things on my mind at any given moment that i just cant focus.  If it isn't school then its bills.  If it isnt bills, its my rehearsal.  If it isnt that then its work.  If it isnt work its trying to find MORE work to pay all my bills.

ARG!! this is tough!

well i guess thats the price of going to the best college ever. I hear that residant assistants get free room and board so hopefully that can be my ticket to living on campus next semester.  I have some experience as a desk assistant from working at my dorm at kentucky state.  I hope that qualifies me enough to be an RA.  If it doesnt then i guess its just tough cookies for me. 

who knows maybe I'll hit the lotto :)

So i guess now is the time to be responsible. In that i guess i have to get rid of my idle time.  IT seems like the more idle time i have the less RESPONSIBLE things i do with it. One would think that because one has more time on ones hands that one would get more done right? For some reason that just doesnt seem to be the case. It's becoming more apparent to me that the less amount of time i give myself to do stuff like studying and homework, the more i actually get done. Now the question is

"How do i fill up all my free time?"

Well i guess its time to join some clubs or something.  So far i've joined a small theatre group that i used to work with years ago in highschool.  Its nice to be able to see familiar faces... anywho, the theatre thing just seem to add more to my plate cause now i have to memorize stuff and rehearse. i guess on the plus side it wil ltake a decent chunk out of my free time. Ive also taken on a research progect with one of my psych professors. Thats pretty exciting. Thats something i can do abot 13 hours a week. HOPEFULLY i can get a night job soon.

So my free time is slowly but surley dwindling away.  this is a good thing because now my responsibility will go up i geuss. :/ ... idano.... i guess im gonna have to continue to do this as i go along HOPING i can use my time responsibly cause one thing that we are continually wasting is time and once its gone we cant get it back. 

hmm... it would be nice tho if i had a time machine...i would be able to go back in time so i could affectively use the time that i already wasted.. i think..  or i could rent it out for large sums of money...

 I DIGRESS!!!

anyway, im getting rid of idle time, trying to use time resposibly by studying and stuff and homework.

wel i still wish i lived on campus. oh well

bye

as the week comes to an end i become even more satasfied with my decision to come here.  I've fallen in love with the campus.  i wish i lived here. but i don't :(... the saddest part of everyday is when i finish my classes and realize that pretty soon im gonna have to leave and go home.  On the flip side, the best part of everyday is waking up and realizing that i get to come back.  Im still having  a great time and learning a lot. 

haha its funny how im looking forward to next week more than i am the weekend.

It's wired how even though this is my second year of college yesturday almost felt like my first day as a freshman all over again... only better. Im really glad that i decided to transfer here.  Everyone is nice and I love how everyone is working together to make an environment that is fun and at the same time conducive for learning. The facilities here at Butler are amazing. I could even imagine having an actual functioning gym and pool at my old school. The campus is beautiful too. I can just walk around and enjoy the trees and fountains and what not. I love it so far. Im glad to be here.